最熟悉的陌生人

从一开始认识你到现在已经四年了。可是对你的熟悉却越来越模糊。在别人的眼中你永远都是个大好人，可是你本身真的是这样吗？以前的我也认为你人很好，有求于你，你一定会帮。可是，就因为你伤害过我，让我如此的伤心，却让我觉得你的好心是假的，是做来好让别人都认为你是个大好人。如果当初你没有那么对我的话，也许我也不会那样看你。如果说我很你的话，我并没有。我只不过是看不过你那么假的行为。为什么你可以那么嬗变？那么不公平？男女真的有差别吗？已你的职位，为什么你要那样对我们呢？你不觉得你很不公平吗？

D.I.E

I just want to bang my head on wall and will never wake up again at this moment!!!!!!! I don't know what happened to me, I just can't stand it anymore now. Everthing seems against me. My memory are getting from bad to worse. Even a small thing can't remember. I'm really afraid now, afraid that the bad days three years and six months ago will repeat again now. I'm going to have exam tomorrow and will end this semester three weeks from now. Yet, my assignments are still there, untouched!!!!!!!

NO words can express my feelings right now, it's mixed:

I cant concentrate in what I wanted to do. Wanted to cry, cry out all my sadness and worries, but no tears drop...............

Wanted to shout, but can't because in a public lab.............

Wanted to chat with someone really close but everyone seems busy with own work........

HOW?????????????????

WHAT CAN I DO NOW???????

MIss you

I think I still miss you..........After not meeting each other for 4 years+, I still miss you........

I do not know why, but you are:

The one whom I missed
The one whom I wanted to meet
The one whom I care now

Really wanted to know:

How are you right now???
What are you doing???
You still remember me???


When I think back, I really enjoy our school time:

The time when we meet, study and hang around together
Then time when we had our recess together under the tree

我到底怎么了？？？？？？要怎么样才能熬过这个学期呢？？？？？？我现在真回想起我是怎么度过上个学期的呢？？？？？？？？？？？

说很难读，并不难。。。。。说容易，也不容易。。。。。。到底是怎么回事呢？？？？？

我知道问题出现在那里，可是就是不知道该如何去解决。。。。。。怎么办？？？？？已经第七个学期了。。。。。。。

我寂寞寂寞就好

一个小时之前没电来.........自己一个人在房间的我觉得很寂寞.................想做东西也做不到，想找个人来谈天，身边又没有人...................看着在燃烧着的蜡烛，就开始想:"人，一辈子都不能够只靠自己，有时候真的很需要朋友的帮忙和支持"........................就好像当时的我，真的很希望身边有个朋友..........................或许，我太想念旧宿舍了吧...............因为在那里，我就不怕寂寞!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

我怀念的

我好怀念
我的旧宿舍，
那间很有厉史性的宿舍。

我好怀念
我旧宿舍外的那座桥，
那座没有楼梯的拱桥。

我好怀念
我旧宿舍里的乌龟池，
那个我们常常一起集合的乌龟池。

我好怀念
我旧宿舍里的羽球场，
那个我们只有晚上会在那里打羽球的羽球场。

我好怀念
我旧宿舍里的篮球场，
那个我们会用来镇寿星公或寿星婆的篮球场。

我好怀念
我的旧室友，
那位我们可以一起谈心事的室友。

我好怀念
我的旧房间，
那间我住了三年的旧房间。

我好怀念
我在旧宿舍的生活，
那个过这很忙碌的生活。

我好怀念
我在旧宿舍的时刻，
那些现在都不会再有的时刻。

Stressful Semester

Today is only my second class for this semester and I already feel hard to survive. How can I complete this semester peacefully and at the same time achieve my target of getting excellent result???????????????

Is not that the subject is tough or what. It's the stress that I feel especially when I'm in a class with more knowledgeable and more experience people.............Can u imagine in the same class with people a level higher than you (PhD), that is much senior than you (age 30 plus) , attended degree and/master overseas previously and some of them even working people as lecturers in some other universities????????

Anyway, there are good side of having "those" kind of people in a class where I can learn from them...........Here, I would like to mention two new classmates that I've known today...........

First is Wilson who is a lecturer at Taylor's. When you heard that he is a lecturer, you must be thinking this is a serious man.......Don't play play with him..........Well, he's not at all and you can't even think that he is a lecturer. With his young looking face that does not suit his age, people just think that he's a student at Taylor's during their Open Day. Besides that, he can just chat with us as if he is as our age and share his stories with us, to say, friendly. Or maybe he is a lecturer, so he understand that lecturer wants feed back from the class and he can just voice out his opinion as he like............A great friend to be........

Second is Kesh who is also a lecturer but in UiTM. Well, he is kinda like Wilson, a very friendly person. To me, the first moment I saw Wilson and Kesh, I thought they were good friend that came to study together. In fact, they just knew each other a little bit earlier before me. As they sat together, they can just jokes and talk as if they were good friends and does not looks like just know each other..........Another great friend.......

Well, I'll have another class tonight...........But really hope that it is not as stress as previous.....I mean I prefer in the same class with people same level as me..........