心理测验

今天做了报纸里的心理测验，说我的信心来自他人的肯定...............

是真的吗？？？？？我却觉得每当他人觉得我会或者我能做到的事，尽然给了我压力...........

我因该说，我根本不觉得自己真的那么厉害，什么都会..................可是，朋友们尤其是同学们都认定了我是会的..................你们知道吗，就是你们一直都说我很厉害，让我觉得很大压力................因为我知道你们对我的期望很高.................所以，我就会进我能力做的更好..................也许，这是一个好事................可是，你们知道吗，当我达不到我的目标时，我有多么的痛苦.................

就像现在..................我一直认为econometric难不到我................可是，事实已经证明了我真的不是很会的......................原本想要得到好成绩，看来就只能在梦里实现咯.....................

寂寞的日子

其实这篇文章是我在九月二十四号早上写的.................那天不知道为什么sign-in不到部落各，所以只好先把我心里的话打进microsoft word，等到今天才post...................我本来两天前就要post了，可是不知道按错了什么，把整篇文章删除了...............

今天不知道怎么了，一睡醒就觉得怪怪的，好像缺少些什么东西那样.................又有一点思念的感觉，可是又不知道思念些什么..................哈哈......................笨笨的我啊..................

可能因为昨晚看了朋友们和他们朋友在一起的照片吧，觉得自己好像没有朋友那样..................就连中学同学也没有联络了，就只有一个小学同学到现在还有保持联络.......................没错，就真的是只有她一个而已哦......................她每次都会问我几时放假，然后我们就会一起约出去逛逛街..............

又或许读了朋友的甜蜜蜜故事吧.............所以觉得自己缺少了爱...............朋友的爱和情人的爱........

写着写着，又有想要哭的感觉了....................真的很想大哭一场，哭得痛快，哭个够本.................可是每次哭不到五分钟，眼泪就没了....................不要说五分钟那么久......................就连一首歌还没唱完，眼泪就干了..................

为什么？？？？？？？？为什么我就是和别人不一样？？？？？？？？为什么他们都有约会，都有同学可以保持联络.......................我呢？？？？？？？？？就只有在上课时候或者参加活动时才会遇见朋友..............

其实，我不是说我没有朋友啦....................宿舍的朋友有很多，可是大家各忙各的，上课的时间又不一样，所以想见个面都很难..........................

搬来这间宿舍后更可悲啊，打开门就看到门..................也没有什么风景可以看...................不像之前那间宿舍，至少打开门就可以看到人.......................就算没有和朋友在一起也不会觉得寂寞.............就算看不到人，也有风景可以看..............................打开窗就看到花草树木，看到篮球场，看到小鸟，还有很多很多东西可以看......................

哈哈......................今天的我好像说了很多，说得太多.........................没办法啦，roommate不在嘛，所以就只能自己跟自己说话咯...........................真的很奇妙，把心里的话说出来之后，心情就好很多了，再也没有闷闷不乐的感觉............................这就要感谢我的好朋友，也就是我唯一一个小学同学到现在还保持联络的那个朋友......................是她教会我写部落各的..........................我开始写部落各的那天也是因为心情很低落......................她说，把自己的不愉快都写完出来，那么心情就会好很多了........................我看，这是真的....................哈哈...................

看来，这次是我第一次打那么多华语字，好像我会写的字越来越多哦......................哈哈.................其实，我会的是汉语拼音啦.....................用电脑打就没有问题，如果要我拿笔一个一个字慢慢写的话，就不可能了...........................哈哈....................

如果有打错字的话，请原谅我哦，还有让我知道.......................等我可以学习.................谢谢...........

信心，你在哪里？？？？？？

太久没在这里写了.........不是懒惰写，而有时候不懂得要写些什么.........或许，这是借口吧........哈哈

有一天晚上睡觉的时候，在想着我做了对的决定吗？？？感觉好像有点后悔选择读“马死特”.........因为现在的我就像死了的马.............越来越没有信心..........每一次想做得更好，却做得更不好........
还记得九月二号晚上的考试，会做得三分之一都不到...........想哭又哭不出来，那种感受真的很难受。还好有朋友的安慰，心情才好了起来。真的真的很感谢林楸棋和layee.........

如果当初出来做工的话，现在的我又会怎么样呢？？？？
或许不像现在，每次考试时都那么大压力..........想考的最好的成绩...........
有要求是好事，可是把要求放的自己达不到的话，却会很痛苦...........

很多时候朋友们或亲戚都会问我读书读得怎么样了？而我却说还好啦，就像之前那样咯，没什么分别..............事实上真的是这样吗？我也不知道.............

三年就这样过了。。。。。

刚刚看回三年前刚进大学orientation week的照片，真的真的很怀念那个时候，天真的我们。。。。

在不知不觉的情况下，三年就过了。。。。。人生中有多少个三年？或者说有多少个充满怀念的三年？？？？？？

coursemate们，各有各的发展，有的回家乡工作了，有的还在念下去。。。。。我们，何时何日还能够好像三年前那样在一起呢？？？？？

Back To "School"

One month plus didn't write blog dy..........

Plan to write my graduation trip when I came back but it seems no time to do it...........
Well, I'll be turning into another stage of my life next week.....being a Master student........

Time passes real fast...........I've end my life as a degree student after three years.......

Two weeks ago, I had a gathering with my primary school friend's.........For some friends, we've not met each other after our secondary school time and some even after primary that was eleven years ago.............Certain still have the same old face but one of them really changed a lot that I can't even recognize him.........

Really miss our primary school time when we thought back what we did...............

Time Flies!!!!!!!!

Time passes so fast...........Without notice, I'm reaching 23 years old, graduating as a degree holder soon, moving into a higher level of education, start another kind of study lives.........Haizz

Saw primary school time photos two days ago.......really missed those times!!!!!!!!!!

Long long time

So long didn't write already............Not because I am lazy but no chance to online.......

Many things happen this few weeks but do not manage to tell all..........

I have finished my degree at last...........Am I happy bout that?????? No idea.........People kept telling me "So good that you are going to graduate".............Is that really that good??????? For me, it's kinda torturing since a graduate have to make decision on what to do next............Well, I'm tired of thinking what to do actually, although I have made my decision...............Lazy to plan for the future!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now, I'm thinking how good was it when I was a child............No need to think so much.................Time to play, play...........Time to eat, eat............Time to go to school, go to school........Everything was well organized.............

This morning, I went to Sungei Wang with my best friend and her mom................She had gained a lot because she managed to to get what she want.............While me????????? Still need high heel shoe and white legging...............Luckily, I've got my jacket.........Hahaha.......If not, I really accompany her only...............

As usual, we went to sixth floor for our lovely dessert~Our "must go" place each time we go to Sg. Wang~But now, the place really disappoint us............The dessert are no longer delicious.................2 out of 3 desserts we ordered do not taste as what we had before................ I guess this will be the last time we visit the dessert "stall"..............