D.I.E

I just want to bang my head on wall and will never wake up again at this moment!!!!!!! I don't know what happened to me, I just can't stand it anymore now. Everthing seems against me. My memory are getting from bad to worse. Even a small thing can't remember. I'm really afraid now, afraid that the bad days three years and six months ago will repeat again now. I'm going to have exam tomorrow and will end this semester three weeks from now. Yet, my assignments are still there, untouched!!!!!!!

NO words can express my feelings right now, it's mixed:

I cant concentrate in what I wanted to do. Wanted to cry, cry out all my sadness and worries, but no tears drop...............

Wanted to shout, but can't because in a public lab.............

Wanted to chat with someone really close but everyone seems busy with own work........

HOW?????????????????

WHAT CAN I DO NOW???????

MIss you

I think I still miss you..........After not meeting each other for 4 years+, I still miss you........

I do not know why, but you are:

The one whom I missed
The one whom I wanted to meet
The one whom I care now

Really wanted to know:

How are you right now???
What are you doing???
You still remember me???


When I think back, I really enjoy our school time:

The time when we meet, study and hang around together
Then time when we had our recess together under the tree