Tuesday, November 2, 2010

三个愿望

好像好久没写了...................................想要写的时候就没有的上网,等到有的上网时就不懂得要写些什么.............................哈哈..............................真矛盾啊!!!!

目前的我有三个愿望......................好像很贪心.................可是,真的希望这三个愿望都能够实现..........................当然三个愿望里只有一个掌握在自己手里..............................另外两个就要等运气咯..........................如果三个都实现的话,我下个学期和以后的日子就好过多了............................

Monday, October 18, 2010

第一个学期就要结束了

在不知不觉的情况下,就要结束我在硕士的第一个学期了.....................现在的我真的是很想重新开始我在这个学期所做的一切,让我不再好像现在这样,让我确确实实地实现我的目标.............................我知道这次的目标比在学士时定的比较高。其实,对其他人来说这个目标是太高了,也很难能够实现到.....................可是要实现它,是可以的...........................

我知道我已经不能再走回头路了......................时间过了就是过了,不能再重复...................我也知道我的目标不能够实现了.....................

可是,心里就是放不下.......................

放不下因为自己没有100%的付出来实现它...........................

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

我的毕业典礼

毕业典礼对一位学生来说是一个很特别的日子。。..我相信每一位学生都很期待那天的到来。。。。
当然,这也包括我在内。。。。。我在这儿很感谢所有到来的朋友和学弟学妹们。。。。

在这天,令我最遗憾的是在典礼完毕之后,我就要赶回家。。。。很多之后来的朋友都没办法跟他们拍照,他们也包括我的coursemates呢。。。。。还好我早一点到,至少在典礼开始之前又派到一些,要不然的话就真的什么都没拍到了。。。。。。。。现在看到其他朋友album时,觉得更错过了跟他们一起拍照的机会。。一个很难得的机会。。。。。。

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

等死吧

明天就要考试了.....................可是到现在都不知道要读些什么,也没有心情去读.....................

当我真的很想读的时候,又收到了一份assignment.............一份可能明天就要交的assignment

我的天啊!!!!!为什么要在这个时候让我知道有这份assignment的存在????????

明天的考试已经还没读完了,还要做一份我根本不会做的assignment..............

等死吧!!!!!!!

看来,我对于这课econometric完全没有希望了.................

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

心理测验

今天做了报纸里的心理测验,说我的信心来自他人的肯定...............

是真的吗?????我却觉得每当他人觉得我会或者我能做到的事,尽然给了我压力...........

我因该说,我根本不觉得自己真的那么厉害,什么都会..................可是,朋友们尤其是同学们都认定了我是会的..................你们知道吗,就是你们一直都说我很厉害,让我觉得很大压力................因为我知道你们对我的期望很高.................所以,我就会进我能力做的更好..................也许,这是一个好事................可是,你们知道吗,当我达不到我的目标时,我有多么的痛苦.................

就像现在..................我一直认为econometric难不到我................可是,事实已经证明了我真的不是很会的......................原本想要得到好成绩,看来就只能在梦里实现咯.....................

Thursday, September 30, 2010

寂寞的日子

其实这篇文章是我在九月二十四号早上写的.................那天不知道为什么sign-in不到部落各,所以只好先把我心里的话打进microsoft word,等到今天才post...................我本来两天前就要post了,可是不知道按错了什么,把整篇文章删除了...............

今天不知道怎么了,一睡醒就觉得怪怪的,好像缺少些什么东西那样.................又有一点思念的感觉,可是又不知道思念些什么..................哈哈......................笨笨的我啊..................

可能因为昨晚看了朋友们和他们朋友在一起的照片吧,觉得自己好像没有朋友那样..................就连中学同学也没有联络了,就只有一个小学同学到现在还有保持联络.......................没错,就真的是只有她一个而已哦......................她每次都会问我几时放假,然后我们就会一起约出去逛逛街..............

又或许读了朋友的甜蜜蜜故事吧.............所以觉得自己缺少了爱...............朋友的爱和情人的爱........

写着写着,又有想要哭的感觉了....................真的很想大哭一场,哭得痛快,哭个够本.................可是每次哭不到五分钟,眼泪就没了....................不要说五分钟那么久......................就连一首歌还没唱完,眼泪就干了..................

为什么????????为什么我就是和别人不一样????????为什么他们都有约会,都有同学可以保持联络.......................我呢?????????就只有在上课时候或者参加活动时才会遇见朋友..............

其实,我不是说我没有朋友啦....................宿舍的朋友有很多,可是大家各忙各的,上课的时间又不一样,所以想见个面都很难..........................

搬来这间宿舍后更可悲啊,打开门就看到门..................也没有什么风景可以看...................不像之前那间宿舍,至少打开门就可以看到人.......................就算没有和朋友在一起也不会觉得寂寞.............就算看不到人,也有风景可以看..............................打开窗就看到花草树木,看到篮球场,看到小鸟,还有很多很多东西可以看......................

哈哈......................今天的我好像说了很多,说得太多.........................没办法啦,roommate不在嘛,所以就只能自己跟自己说话咯...........................真的很奇妙,把心里的话说出来之后,心情就好很多了,再也没有闷闷不乐的感觉............................这就要感谢我的好朋友,也就是我唯一一个小学同学到现在还保持联络的那个朋友......................是她教会我写部落各的..........................我开始写部落各的那天也是因为心情很低落......................她说,把自己的不愉快都写完出来,那么心情就会好很多了........................我看,这是真的....................哈哈...................

看来,这次是我第一次打那么多华语字,好像我会写的字越来越多哦......................哈哈.................其实,我会的是汉语拼音啦.....................用电脑打就没有问题,如果要我拿笔一个一个字慢慢写的话,就不可能了...........................哈哈....................

如果有打错字的话,请原谅我哦,还有让我知道.......................等我可以学习.................谢谢...........

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

信心,你在哪里??????

太久没在这里写了.........不是懒惰写,而有时候不懂得要写些什么.........或许,这是借口吧........哈哈

有一天晚上睡觉的时候,在想着我做了对的决定吗???感觉好像有点后悔选择读“马死特”.........因为现在的我就像死了的马.............越来越没有信心..........每一次想做得更好,却做得更不好........
还记得九月二号晚上的考试,会做得三分之一都不到...........想哭又哭不出来,那种感受真的很难受。还好有朋友的安慰,心情才好了起来。真的真的很感谢林楸棋和layee.........

如果当初出来做工的话,现在的我又会怎么样呢????
或许不像现在,每次考试时都那么大压力..........想考的最好的成绩...........
有要求是好事,可是把要求放的自己达不到的话,却会很痛苦...........

很多时候朋友们或亲戚都会问我读书读得怎么样了?而我却说还好啦,就像之前那样咯,没什么分别..............事实上真的是这样吗?我也不知道.............

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

三年就这样过了。。。。。

刚刚看回三年前刚进大学orientation week的照片,真的真的很怀念那个时候,天真的我们。。。。

在不知不觉的情况下,三年就过了。。。。。人生中有多少个三年?或者说有多少个充满怀念的三年??????

coursemate们,各有各的发展,有的回家乡工作了,有的还在念下去。。。。。我们,何时何日还能够好像三年前那样在一起呢?????

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Back To "School"

One month plus didn't write blog dy..........

Plan to write my graduation trip when I came back but it seems no time to do it...........
Well, I'll be turning into another stage of my life next week.....being a Master student........

Time passes real fast...........I've end my life as a degree student after three years.......

Two weeks ago, I had a gathering with my primary school friend's.........For some friends, we've not met each other after our secondary school time and some even after primary that was eleven years ago.............Certain still have the same old face but one of them really changed a lot that I can't even recognize him.........

Really miss our primary school time when we thought back what we did...............

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Time Flies!!!!!!!!

Time passes so fast...........Without notice, I'm reaching 23 years old, graduating as a degree holder soon, moving into a higher level of education, start another kind of study lives.........Haizz

Saw primary school time photos two days ago.......really missed those times!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, May 10, 2010

Long long time

So long didn't write already............Not because I am lazy but no chance to online.......

Many things happen this few weeks but do not manage to tell all..........

I have finished my degree at last...........Am I happy bout that?????? No idea.........People kept telling me "So good that you are going to graduate".............Is that really that good??????? For me, it's kinda torturing since a graduate have to make decision on what to do next............Well, I'm tired of thinking what to do actually, although I have made my decision...............Lazy to plan for the future!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now, I'm thinking how good was it when I was a child............No need to think so much.................Time to play, play...........Time to eat, eat............Time to go to school, go to school........Everything was well organized.............

This morning, I went to Sungei Wang with my best friend and her mom................She had gained a lot because she managed to to get what she want.............While me????????? Still need high heel shoe and white legging...............Luckily, I've got my jacket.........Hahaha.......If not, I really accompany her only...............

As usual, we went to sixth floor for our lovely dessert~Our "must go" place each time we go to Sg. Wang~But now, the place really disappoint us............The dessert are no longer delicious.................2 out of 3 desserts we ordered do not taste as what we had before................ I guess this will be the last time we visit the dessert "stall"..............

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Wishes Come True

Wuahahahaahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can say that all my wishes last week has come true in this week.................

Firstly, I told my mom that I've never been to night market in Sri Kembangan this semester.................It has come true on Monday where my friends aka juniors request to have dinner with me since this is my last semester here as a degree student........................The place they choose was night market that i wish to go...............Hooray!!!!!!!!!
Thanks to Ang Li Ching, Chan Sin Yee, Lee Chai Hoon and Chua Siew Yen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Second, I've never been to The Mines also this semester and I just went yesterday..................My ex-roommate asked me out to watch movie and have meals with her since we never had meals together this two semesters........................Although I'm not really in the mood of going out since I'm going to have my exam tomorrow, I just persuade myself that I still have today...........Why not I just go??????? We watched Ais Kacang Puppy Love, a local production movie that involves many local artists.............A great movie that include many feeling!!!!!!!!Great job "Ah Niu"!!!!!!!!Then we had a surprise birthday party to one our my junior..............Haha, my ex-roommate expect her to cry but she didn't................She's kinda dissappointed about that.......
Thanks to my ex-roommate, Kenix Lim Chiau Chyi, Yong Ai Yuan, Maggie Leo Mei Zhi, Cheok Pei Yin, Tey Ming Luan, Tay Chai Yinn, Lee Mei Chee and Alexandria Sim Lina!!!!!!!!!!!

Thirdly, I've never ever been to Connaught night market.......................Again, i just went last night.................
Thanks again to my ex-roommate, Kenix Lim Chiau Chyi and Yong Ai Yuan for giving me this opportunity to visit the longest night market!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Weird Feeling

I do not know why my heart beat so fast today..........................It seems like I'm worrying about something..............I suppose feel enjoy since I'm going out for a movie later with my friends and ex-roommate............I really really hate this kind of feeling!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I ended up playing games for two hours!!!!!!!!!!! AARRRGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
What happened to me??????????? Why am I becoming lazy??????????

Sunday, April 11, 2010

I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I do not know why I miss u so much suddenly......................
Really fell like wanted to meet up with you to know how are u doing now.............
As a friend that has lost contact for so many years, really wanted to know how are you, what are you doing right now............
I'm really jealous when saw your picture taken with your other friends but we are not even able to meet up..................

I might have chance to meet the person I missed at night market, but I feel that I might get nervous.........Don't know for what reason...............Maybe we didn't meet up too long..........

Monday, April 5, 2010

1319

Sick already lo..............As usual start with sore throat..........Luckily throat's niece and nephew, "cough and flu" haven't arrive........Hahaha.......

I went to my university's so call "clinic" to get my medicine..........This is not the first nor second time I've been there but never have problem like today........However, this is the first time I go with a friend of mine......

My registration number is 1319 which also means that I have to wait till my number appears on the screen that give me signal that is my turn to see the doctor.............Basically, at registration counter, the nurse will determine which doctor will appoint us, which means that we know which room we will be entering before our number appeared............Mine is room number 4.........

Firstly...............my friend that go with me got number 1320 and she is supposed to enter room no 9.....................Apparently, while we were waiting for our turn, my friends number appeared before mine but the room number is also the room which I should be appointed...........Weird........ Never mind, then she walk into the room.............Usually doctor will ask for name to ensure that's the person he/she should appoint................The problem come at this time.............The name appear on doctor's screen was my name, not my friend's................I should said 'quite' lucky because my friend knows that it was me................Can you imagine if it was someone else? Sure the doctor will look out for me..............Then, the nurse knew that something went wrong during our registration and she settled it for us...............Fine, we have to wait again............When the nurse came back, she ask me to wait for my number again..............Ok..............The number that appear on the screen to enter room number 4 is 1315....................Fine, I'm gonna wait again because that was not my number!!!!!!!!!!!!! A few seconds later, the nurse came out and called my name............Get the problem????? The number appeared should be my number,1319 but instead of the number, other number appear...................Haizz, really no fate with the number.......

Thursday, April 1, 2010

I spend one whole day yesterday enjoying myself even though there is one more assignment to do and my proposal for continuing my master................Went sing K at Jusco Cheras Selatan in the afternoon and went Station One around Jusco Equine Park for dinner and celebrate my course-mate's birthday............Seems relaxing myself huh????????

In fact, I'm kinda regret....................Actually, I didn't expect to go out at night because I only know the plan in the afternoon............Ya, I can choose not to go...............But I go "atas dasar" we are friend and this is our last semester already...............

Maybe it is good also la since I didn't go out for a long time already...............Thanks my friend............I really enjoy myself yesterday.............


Tuesday, March 30, 2010

UNFAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

How can you be so unfair to us??????????????

When we proposed the title you asked us "How you want to relate it with finance?"................"No, do something related to finance."

Fine, we do something else...............You end up telling that you are dissappointed that we're doing that title...................Ok, there nothing we can say as you are the one who is going to judge our work..............

But what happen today is that someone else presenting the title we proposed to you long before that you questioned "How do we relate it with finance" and you end up saying that is a good presentation...................Have you ever thought of our feelings??????????

This is not the first time you act like this.............Can you please be more consistent???????We asked you before we start to do that title is because we respect you and we do hope that by telling you our title, that title will belong to us so that there will be no same title for our presentations and assignments.....................

Every time I tell myself to forgive you, you will do something that makes me feel so bad about you........................Now, I'm really confuse about my perception on you.............

Monday, March 29, 2010

LAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm suppose to do my assignments but I end up playing games.....................Haizz............Telling myself 'this is the last game'........................but still continue playing..............If I continue get addicted to games, I will not going to do any of my works................GOSH!!!!!!!!!!

No no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no...................Say no more to games until I finish my assignment!!!!!!!!!!!!

No matter how tired or sleepy am I, I rather not sleep and telling myself to do my assignment...............But, when playing games, I'm not sleepy at all...................

So, how is my result going to improve if I keep on behave like this????????????

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Catur Bistari

Hahahahahahahahahahahaha.......................Never even heard of Catur Bistari before but represent college in that competition.............

This is a board game that is something like Monopoly but this Catur Bistari is based on business world where all the transaction made is exactly same as if we are running a business........Hmm....I can say this is a great experience in joining this competition although I'm just a banker.............hehe...........This competition is held in cooperation with Johor Corporation

The first prize winner will get RM 800 + certificate, second Rm 500 + certificate and third Rm 200 + certificate.............The winners are determined by the highest total assets earned by all the group members.............There is also an individual winner which earned the highest total assets among all the players...........The winner has break the previous record by earning RM 1.** billion in 2 hours time..............Can anyone imagine how good his strategy is??????

A great experience but I guess this will be the last time for me to join this competition as I'm going to graduate soon..............

Catur Bistari

Saturday, March 27, 2010

^_^

So far so good today...............

Hope that this will continue till the end of my life...............

Although not having enough sleep because lots of things to settle, at least my heart is not broken by 'killing' words.........
At least, I did all the things willingly.............

Going to have final exam in 3 weeks time.................Plan to get a better result this semester, but I think all that left is just a dream or a plan which I can't fulfill...............Not getting good result during my mid-term and test prevent me to get a good result in final............Haizz...........

People is doing better days after but I'm opposite.................I'm getting worse...............Can I turn back the time so that I can do better during my past semester?????????

Can I learn the things that I didn't get to learn before this????????I'm a bit regret for not joining debate last time which I think it is a very good experience now.............

Although many people think that I'm wasting my time joining all the activities, but I think it is an advantage for me................I have the experience of performing on the stage, running a program and many many other experiences that I gain throughout my life as an undergraduate.............

I'm pretty sure that I'll miss the times when I had practice with all other dancers and committee................It was so fun that we are so close to each other that we eat together and even jokes although we do not know each other before that.............

Haha...........Seems like my mood to write in Blog has come back after a long time I left it blank without any posts.................

Friday, March 26, 2010

Finally

After a few days of cloudy day..............The rain start to fall at last...........

Haha.......What a released........................FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If not, I do not know how long I can stand it anymore.................

Now, I really feel hard to communicate with people that is:
- not understanding
- that judge people without listen to what people want to say
- who talk to people as if people MUST listen to whatever they are saying
- that make decision without knowing what's happening and do not care what is the outcome after the decision

If before this you are not satisfied with me, I guess now you must hate me so much that you think that I do not listen to you and do not follow your instruction..............

In reality, it is not like that..................Actually I'm trying to tell you what is happening so that you do not make the same mistake that others might think you did something without obeying the rules..............In fact, I do not want you to be another person that is blamed for doing the same thing....................It's not that I questioned what you are going to do or stopped you from doing it..............

People around do not satisfy with you is because your attitude that do not respect others.............I do know that what you do is for everyone's good.............But, at the same time, you must know the correct way of doing it...................and not forced others to listen to you!!!!!!!!!!
How do you expect others to listen to you when you yourself do not listen to others???????

You cannot compare the people here and the people where you meet before this...............The culture is totally different...............If previously, people can accept the way you conduct, it is not the same here................It's totally different!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If you wish to continue your life here, I really hope that you can change your attitude and the way you talk...................If not, more and more people will never listen to you and even HATE you......................The effect will be back to you....................I don't mind because I'm going to leave here in one month time............

If before this, I did thought that I might continue staying here, now, I guess I will reconsider...............But of course, I do care about others that are still here................I really hope that you do not make them to consider to leave.................

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Fell to the bottom

For a very long long time I didn't write here dy..............

Nothing seems to be right in this few weeks..............The things I did and the decisions I make..........Even my hope and effort.............The better I want, The worse it gets................

Haizz.....................................I really wanted to cry out but every time my tears wanted to dropped, it clears right after.................

Can I leave?????????? Leave this world that full of problems to solve and matters to think about.....................

I'm suffering especially this two days...........................................Can I stopped thinking about all the problems and live happily?????????????

I'm really really tired and wish to have a full day to do whatever I want and relax myself..........

AARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Which road to be taken?

1. Master in Science(Economics)
2. Master in Economics
3. Work

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Abnormal life

Erm.......I guess my abnormal life of being busy until sleep very late in the night and wake up very early in the morning is beginning...........Actually I wasn't that busy right now, but I don't know why that I can just waste my time like that just to chat till very late............I have notes that pending until today that I haven't update it.........Again not because I don't have time to update it, but my laziness!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've gotta change!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, January 4, 2010

Headache

Haizz......got headache since last night till now.......Hope will recover soon.........Really hate it when having headache especially when need to concentrate.........

Really wonder was it my problem? I do not know why my roommate will never chat with me when we were in room.............I was the one that start the conversation each time and she'll only answer whatever that I asked, and nothing more than that..........Aren't people that seldom met have more things to chat about????????

My dear ex-roommate, now I'm kinda miss our time together although we are not often in the room together..............At least, we shared our stories and problems...........

Sunday, January 3, 2010

A New Year

Time passed so fast and it's a new year already..............

Still remember XXX that disappointing me before???? Refer to 15th November 2009 post to refresh it.............Now, I do not know that I should angry with him anymore or not..........I can say he treated me badly before but now, he was not so...........At least, for this moment!!!!!!!! Hope he treated me like that day when I approach him and not like last year................