Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Me and You

Ever since we are in a relationship, I have a habit of writing "our story". It is meant to record our moments together, where we went and what we did but now seems like I'm writing my diary. Most of the time, I'm including how I feel when we have so called "arguments". When I read back, it seems like more moody days than those happy ones recently. Even if it started with happiness, sooner or later in the day, there will appear some 'issues' that will affect our mood or is it my mood only?

Frankly, I did expect something from you sometimes, but that expectation didn't go far because I will not hoping to get something when I didn't give much. To me, it's like give and take to be fair. Yes, all your sweet words and phrases are nice, but sometimes, I rather you give me a little surprise when we are in our world-of-two. Sometimes I do wonder how all other couples get so well with each other. I don't mean that we didn't get well, but sometimes I just don't know how to go through it.

I don't used to believe horoscope prediction last time. But now, seems like it's rather true about you. Jealousy and intimacy.......Both are big matter to me. And well, after reading some horoscope compatibility, I found that we are both Mars versus Venus. Most of it mention it's gonna be a big challenge for both of us to be together but I don't really agree in that because we can control our life. 

Being together with someone is never an easy task. Have to take care partner's feeling but and the same time make sure self are not hurt. I'm not sure about you, because sometimes when I too care for your feeling and there are things that I dare not voice out, I'll ended up making myself moody. When can I really talk to you about everything? 

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

我们到底怎么了?

最近真的不知道怎么了,几乎每个星期都会有意见不合,小争吵。虽然说清楚后就没事,但心里重会有点不愉快。为什么会这样呢?我们不是说好了什么事都要拿出来商量吗?干嘛说了之后会搞得自己不开心呢?是我想太多吗?要怎样才让自己能看开点呢?

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

小气鬼

觉得自己越来越小气了。为了一些芝麻绿豆事也感到生气,觉得不爽。到底怎么了?不喜欢就说嘛。干嘛要扮没事呢?搞得自己那么难受。

Monday, July 16, 2012

矛盾

可能因为在乎,现在开始想要知道了,但没那个勇气去问。应该怎么办呢?问还是不问好呢?问的话,又怕会伤害到自己。不问的话,又想要知道。真矛盾啊!!!

我不问的话,你有可能知道我想知道吗?你会自己亲自告诉我吗?听了之后,我又会怎样呢?我接受的到吗?你的答案是我想听到的吗?听了之后,我会伤心又后悔吗?


Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Finally

It's a relieve after throwing all the questions to you. I get the answer that I always wanted to know this 2 weeks. I thought I will get scared but it ended up with a relieve. Maybe I am prepared for the answer that you might give me. Anyway, I'm glad that you be frank enough to let me know what you think and your bravery to let me know the truth. We will never know what will happen in the future. So, just let it be...........

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

On Call 36 小时

刚刚看完了这部感人的戏。这部戏深深地刻在我心里了。戏如人生。香港有很多部戏都说这人生中的日常生活;有关于警察的,律师的,法医的,消防的,医生的,还有很多很多不一样生活背景的人物背后的故事。之前所看过的戏都比不如 On Call 这部。这部戏让我体会到很多事情。也有很多对白深深地埋在我心里。生,老,病,死~~~都是每个人都会体验到的过程。人总是要勇敢的面对眼前所有的困难。逃避解决不到问题。健康的人不一定会开心,不健康的人不一定会不开心。一个人有病的时候,应该告诉身边关心自己的人,让他们有心里军备接受坏消息。突然的离开会带来更难以接受的事实。这番话有它的道理,但有多少人真正的做到呢?

或许我看得太投入。有时候还把自己当成戏里面的角色,深深的体会角色的感受,还哭了无数次。老实说,遇到困难时我曾经想过如果我突然遇上车祸或拿起一把刀自行了断就这样离开了这个世界有多好。还好我还很清醒知道这样是不行的。现在看了这部更了解一个人的离开,带给身边的人更多痛苦,尤其是亲人。所以每个人都要好好地珍惜自己所拥有的一切,身边的每一个人。今日不知明日事,如果要哭着过每一天,倒不如笑着过。好好的享受生活,享受剩下的日子。

在这个世界上,如果真的有好像一件头的人,有多好?虽然知道自己心爱的人有病,还不离不弃的陪在心爱人的身边,鼓励他,支持她,安慰她。如果我是鱼仔,都死无以含。如果好像一康也不错,虽然视线和普通人不一样,比别人矮了50 cm,但还可以照顾自己,拥有灿烂的笑容,很乐观的面对生活。如果世界上每一个人都能够好像戏里面的角色那么乐观的面对生活,就真的天下太平了。

一年多之前,有江世丰为接受不到与女友分手的打击而在面子书倒数自杀。三月十八号在台湾又有另一民女生因为男朋友没理会她,生日当天没陪她回家,就在家里烧炭自杀。自杀时也和江世丰一样在面子书留言。人生中,情为何物?没有爱情,就不能活了吗?

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

My Future????

Well, I've left this page for a very long time........It seems like I've even forget bout this place for me to voice out my worries and so.

Heard friends talking about interviews as lecturer at different higher institutions, either public or private. It scares me!!! Really!!!!!

Now, I'm really afraid of my future. What will I be when I graduated????? I have my plan, my ambition, but will it end up as I planned???? Will I be what I wanted to be????? Will I get what I wanted to get????? Will I live the life I wanted to?????

It seems I've lost my strength to move forward............